Working on protein

Woke up to a gloomy day:( 

Wt 216.5

I had to put on my fat jeans this morning. My daughter is reading in church. Not pleased with the sz 18 pants:( GOTTA CHANGE THAT NUMBA! I remember that feeling of almost fitting into size 12's about 2 yrs ago.  But then again, I lost that weight the wrong way. Quick fixes are not the answer for me, clearly

Bkfast: 1 egg, 5 egg whites & cinn ezekial toast

Snack: beef jerkey

Lunch: I went to lunch with my family after church & the cafe didnt have 1 salad on their menu, really?! I got a small burger. No fries. No cheese. No bacon. Sigh

And apparently that burger turned into a gateway drug. I then had over the course of the day...several handfuls of M&M's(throwing the bag away today), snack bag of cheetos, 2 large cinn rolls, & several glasses of wine. Damn it

Oh & didnt get my mile in either. Yestr is the perfect example of just how derailed I can get. 

😳 

CRAMPS!!

Blah! Up alot last night with cramps & bathroom breaks:( guess that means I did a good job getting all my water in yestr😉

BUT, I still feel better than I did 4 days ago, even with cramps. Hoping to keep this motivation going!

3 days of eating healthy, no sodas & no booze👍👏👏

Workout- really not wanting to go at all! First I took off in my flip flops. Then I forgot to put on long workout pants. Shorts are the worst when your thighs rub together:( but after turning back to put shoes on, I didnt want to go back to change. So I spent the 2 miles pulling down the shorts & still managed to chaffe my inner thighs:( burn baby burn🔥🔥 fat girl problems

Bkfast- egg with 2 egg whites & cinn raisin ezekial toast

Snack- 24 almonds. And yes, I counted them😉

Lunch- yet another george foreman sandwich. This one wasnt as tasty as the others but it killed the hunger pains. Canned chicken, chick peas, shredded cheese, turkey bacon & seasoning. 

Snank- bell pepper w/c LC swiss cheese wedge

The afternoon was TOUGH!!! I was bored with cravings. Terrible combo

I caved & had a Light beer...then binged on M&M's....then had a vodka/water drink (or 2). 😞 i digressed 

Dinner- grilled chicken, cauliflower mashed potatoes & baked squash. I know my meal sounds like a rockstar meal but I had a few bites of the family's "real" mashed potatoes with cheese. 

I do feel alittle defeated but not beating myself up over it. BUT I def dont plan to repeat tonight's pitiful efforts at staying on track!

Damn cravings

Weight 217

I figured out why I may have been cranky, tired & full of cravings? Nope, not preggos😜  That bitch flo is visiting:(  I guess the plus side is that I lost 5 or so lbs since monday even with being bloated from that. It will only get better once I'm done!

I am doing great BTW! I was home bored yestr & I still stayed within a healthy range of calories & fat/protein/carb %.  Last week I plugged my food in on a normal day & it was around 2500 cals😳 wtf?! Geez, cant imagine why I was gaining weight?!  The past 2 days I have consumed around 1400-1500.

Bkfast- medifast shake & apple

Workout- actually got in a few 2 min jog intervals with my walk this morning. Which boosted up my calories burned! Check out that sweaty hand:)

Snack- shakeology w/ 1/2 a banana. It would have been a whole banana but half dropped into the dog food bag..and i chose not to eat it😞

Lunch- another yummy hot sammy. This one with a hamburger patty, shredded cheese, slice of turkey bacon, banana peppers & red onions

Doesnt that look delish?!

Snack: 1/2 red bell pepper filled with 1 wedge of laughing cow swiss cheese. Ever eaten this combo? Delish!

Dinner: boiled shrimp, salad w/ lite raspberry vinegerette dressing & green beans

Snack: cottage cheese mixed with blueberries & crushed pineapple

Had a decent pie chart day. I always struggle with getting more protein in my diet..and I didnt eat all my activity cals, yay!!

Letting people in

It took alot for me to tell my close peeps about this blog, weird? It was easier knowing that strangers & only 1 close friend was reading this. Guess I need to step it up & actually stick with this:) Game on!!

Feeling focused. I slept somewhat decent last night, which is odd for me. Got up, took the stray cat to get fixed. I didnt eat before I left but I did grab a leftover medifast shake & bar...which I devoured at the same time. 2 meals my ass! Lol

When I got home I went for my walk. My ankle is still pretty shitty so I didnt even attempt to run. But honestly, didnt want to:(. I did more than a mile which is great & burned some nice cals...which I promise not to drink later😳

Lunch: made myself another george foreman hot flatout bread sandwich using a chicken patty from NuNu's, avocados & turkey bacon. Yum!!

Snack: bag of beef jerkey from Academy cause my little hot sandwich didnt last 3 hrs & I was 30 min from my house:( figured it was better than the dbl bacon cheeseburger from Mcdonalds that I wanted to stop for! 

Another snack: greek yogart...come on dinner time!!!! I should have napped to kill an hour or 2:( but I opted to take the kids out for some fun instead, which always back fires on me b/c of their behavor...sigh

Dinner: I made it!! Richard walked in at 5:20 & said "you're already cooking dinner?" Yep, and you'll be eating early ALOT this week. Lol

Pan Seared Tilapia, shredded squash & peas & dry toasted ezekial sesame toast. And some watermelon & cottage cheese for dessert🍉 

(Ps, you'll see alot of paper plates😜)

As I increase my activity levels, I'll increase my daily calories. But for now,

All I am going to worry about this week is portion controls! I would love to eventually eat clean but before that I need to learn to not binge eat.  and yes, I do that, even secretly eat. (Letting all my dark secrets out). I truly think I am a food addict:(  

End pie chart looked pretty good. Closing out day 2 tired, alittle cranky & not willing to share my food with the kids...STEP OFF VULTURES! 😳

Yea yea yea, starting over!

Weight: 221

Ever look at a picture of yourself & want to completely love it but can't b/c all you see is your weight?? Well, this is it for me:

I absolutely love this b/c I love this man & our life together. But damn, I sure have let myself go.... 

I have given myself a new goal (for the 467,357,247 time in my life). I WILL lose 50 lbs by my 40th bday on Sept 13, 2015. That gives me over a year to get it! And I will take a picture in a 2 piece for the world to see! I cant guarantee that you wont lose your lunch after seeing it...but I'm going to do it😜 

The drinking has to stop! Or atleast slow down;) It brings me down physically & all it does is add unwanted cals & sugar. I'll work on that.

I will walk atleast 1 mile a day, more if I can. And if its raining, I'll dust off the elliptical sitting in my living room👍 no excuses.

Today's efforts. It was a hot mo fo & my foot is hurting so I did my 1 mile & burned 200 cals (197 but I like to round that shit up, lol).

Bkfast:

1 whole egg plus 1 egg white

Slice of ezekial toast

Snack: greek black cherry yogart

Lunch:

In a flatbread I rolled up & pressed in a george foreman (had to wipe the dust off that bad boy!)

Lunch meat, shredded cheddar, 1/4 avacado, 2 slices of turkey bacon). VERY yummy but Fat girl could have eaten another one. 

Slice of watermelon

Snack:

Cottage cheese & crushed pineapple

Dinner:  step aside Wendy's!

Grilled chicken, strawberries, blueberries, blue cheese crumbles, chopped almonds, croutons & a lite raspberry vinegerette. 

Ok, gonna admit. I was really hungry & cranky by the end of the night.  I had some watermelon & a melatonin💤😞

This dieting shit is not for the weak

Day 2 of 30 day challenge

Got on the scale, 218.5. Which is kinda bullshit cause I weighed 216 just 2 days ago. So I get my shit together & my weight goes up? WTF? 

Not going to let that derail me. I just know that in 30 days that scale number will be lower & I'll feel better....come on 30 days!!

8:30 workout

2 sets of:

15 squats

5 push ups

15 leg lifts

52 sit ups

1 min butt kicks

1 min jump ropes

Burned 170 cals

I didnt do so good tracking & logging. My MFP wasnt working:( 

But it went like this....

2 small country eggs, ezekial toast & honeydo melon

Apple with almond butter

Salad with ranch, croutons, canned ck, banana peppers & bacon bits

Quest bar

Pan seared tilapia. 1 filet in a tortila with seasoned sour cream & 1 filet in a lettuce wrap

I admit, I did partake in some vodka. Dern it.

Moving forward

Day 1 30 day challenge

Ok, I am committing myself to a buns, guns & abs challenge with a sit up challenge added!! I have to get my weight under control. I have put every ounce back on & it feels gross:(

Starting weight: 216.5

Day 1 (2 sets)

10 squats

5 push ups

15 leg lifts

42 sit ups

Bkfast/ egg , cinn raisen ezekial toast & a plum

11am I made it this far without any bad food. Yay me!!!!!!  Good lucking sandwich! (No mayo- that should be equilvalent as going to church)

2:30 Greek yogart. Doing good so far..mostly cause I just woke up from a 2 hr nap. Thats one way to not eat, just go to sleep, lol

2:45..yep, still hungry:( 

Hummus & carrot "chips" (its def not pita chips but it'll do)

6:15 Winner Dinner

Ok, this is as good as it looks! Zucchini, turnips, onions, peas, carrots, sausage & shrimp. I added some whole wheat spiral noodles that i chopped so I wouldnt need as much. With a slice of toasted sesame ezekial bread:)

M daughter even sliced everything!

Feeling pretty strong at this point!

My final day. 1421 cals. I kinda did the opposite of what I wanted to do, higher carbs. I'll be working on changing that tmro